I heal, I meditate and attract and connect when my body dances.
K helped the stride of my blooming in a tremendous way. He gives me the key, the shortcut, the tested and tried, and I know he knows why I am thanking him.
I sat, enjoying myself, listening to Coeur de la Nuit – headphones, J in my hand, dancing in my seat; and I have been thinking about KJ Today; just thinking, just remembering and thinking, nothing at all in particular: just You, and how It is making me feel.. I was enjoying this happiness which is now not so disconnected, and more continuous. Just observing the state of my being, my feelings, and what emotions I feel. Brain asks: but are you depressed?
I started thinking about it, looking out at the storm outside, and then snapped out of the question, smoothly, shortly after saying, Nope. And here for the third time, and all today, I realize how much Kj’s influence on me is affecting me Right.
I remained in my happiness.
I went on to other things, and as I was looking at older posts, I saw this.
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So, Without processing.. and continuing my being… (+work:findnewjob:))
for in this life, so much is here that I want to satisfy from, & long to.. layers of exotically familiar senses waking up, inviting me .. my brain is thirsty for living this kind of life, ya kj.
You can’t retain memories of how it felt, but you can access the ambiance by invoking the memory itself; like euphoric goosebumps. #just with you
When you are happy, you are always horney – for many things.
Suddenly today, I saw the moment my guard pulled down, by itself, like invisible theatrical curtain. I felt. I was transported to that ambient realm of feeling alive.
“It begins to look as if we ourselves, by a last minute decision, have an influence on what a photon will do when it has already accomplished most of its doing…we have to say that we ourselves have an undeniable part in shaping what we have always called the past. The past is not really the past until it has been registered. Or put it another way, the past has no meaning or existence unless it exists as a record in the present.” — John Wheeler
