#Log: Don’t Dare to Believe
This is not the usual psychological vomit. I will not try to persuade myself into snapping out of it and just be in the Now. It doesn’t work.
This time, I differently approach this particular #soulmate#Salvation situation:
Compare and contrast the data:
- The 2 dreams about #Evil Savior sharing the same motif. In reverse is it I.B?
The dreams came one before, and one after we met. It’s been in total 4 days, I guess. Both dreams are one message. Think of the badman character and your own character in both dreams. Then do the same and think about I.’s character and mine/laila. Aren’t they opposites?
- Think about the things he was saying to you: that it is as if he is ‘hearing no one talking’, I am the ‘same voice talking in his head’. Think about when he said that; in response to what was going on. And think about what you said, when suddenly the walls came tumbling down between us.
I saw him, because he was looking right at me. Think about #Presence. Remember your reaction of utter disbelief in what’s happening. Think how light you felt, how pure it was, and how very simple everything was.. When two souls say hi.
- Consider every sign and synchronicity
- And most importantly, find out why you have to write this.
- The problem is.. the reason why you blocked yourself is that if you don’t reverse the dreams meaning, then I.B is the #Evil Saviour.
Your disbelief that he has connected with you on this level is terrifying you because you can’t believe it is actually happening. You are so disconnected from anything that is not you. He came to you and he said hi. He recognized you. It’s a new level and you are lagging behind. You are so afraid of what is at the end of the level. You don’t want to die of a broken heart and restart the level. You convinced yourself that your other half is not alive, not for this life. You decided that, and you set the rest of your life to play this script. You are the writer and you are the creator of your reality. But, listen. See. Let something big go. Because the next scene has been hijacked away from me. I am not running the script, the new script. An intervention. An interruption, of your transmission. It is coming from outside. L.B and I.B. are in the moment when it could mean soulmate, and it could not. One question and one answer.
- My instinct knows it is a yes,
that this is actually happening. And that I will snap out of myself. He is him. Notice how slowly you are recognizing him. He just recognized you first.
Lets go to the Citadel.
PS: The dreams end differently!
PSS: There is a time shift because I remember these dreams to be extremely recent. In a row. They are in fact a month apart, and might have both been before I.B.
