Last orgasm:
Never before.
The O was transformed, then transported astrally away from me.
It was taken away from me,
I accepted, and let it go.
I knew the O was leaving to do something important.
I let my intention out real loud, Hasan.
It was tantric,
interdimensional,
a different pallette.
I was visited by a realm of PURITY.
INCONNECE. CHILDishness. Trust. Love.
UnSexual.
CLEAR. Robust.
Mechanical. A code.
It was happening to me. Not in me.
External. I let it in.
I gave it my orgasm,
Knowing it meant the sensual sexual aspect won’t happen.
I gave it away like a favour,
like a gift, like the right thing to do,
I let it take my orgasm,
as I sat cross-legged,
feeling like a child in school,
attentively focused on the mentor’s advice,
big wide trusting eyes,
Inquisitiveness unnecessary for this moment,
I gave it,
In three distinct waves it took it out from me
from the lower left side it left,
I could see it in my mind, energy.
And I rode it hard with my Intention.
Like a rode him tonight.
Blindfolded viking,
wrists tied behind his back,
I gave it to him.
He called out to me
mama
I hear you
“a Virgo woman will be able to experience her sensual, earthy nature with Torus in a way that she could not with another man.”
Dizzy [Quantum Jumps]
Earlier, daytime:
Instead of riding the dizzy spell and willing jumping into another dimension,
for a reason today I firmly said no.
It felt different.
I was not accepting.
I literally spoke out loud ‘shoo’ ,
shooing it away left side with my hands.
Three times.
I completely released myself free from it grasp.
It went upwards and to the left.
Doing that felt great.
The sick feeling, dizziness and nausea stopped in its path.
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