Can’t throw myself out of the palace window.

Unknown location, a huge palace like building. There are other characters there in the story, a man, a woman. I don’t remember anything.
I am walking by myself. It feels like I am trying to get away from them. I walk into a huge empty room. The bright sunlight fills the room from the tall windows. I walk, intentionally, to the left side and stand by the last window. I look out and see green nature. A big garden, trees, a wall and a green field. “It feels tempting to jump” (sync. w/video:Beyond the Veil talkshow)
I look down out of the window. It was a far way down, about 5 levels. Right underneath the two windows are two bouncy pillows. The one below me was huge, dark blue and brand new. It looked perfectly safe to land on if I jump.
But I couldn’t throw myself. There was a sense of chill and fear of pain and getting hurt. My mind kept telling me it is a dream! It’s a dream! But I couldn’t but imagine bouncing off the bouncy in the wrong direction after landing on it. My mind tried assuring me of my ability to fly or change the matrix. But the fear won. And I backed away from the window, and went with the dream.

Did I fail an exam?
and what’s the message?