Hotels

#Brown Boy
Indian with light brown skin. I stop noticed his color and have a moment where I think about it realizing how it doesn’t matter, cause I like that boy. At first, I didn’t want to act natural with him incase he misunderstands my friendliness and thinks I’m coming on to him. Later, I relax and enjoy his company. He comes out from the friend zone to be more and I don’t mind that he thinks I’m his.

#Car Scene (daytime)
Sitting in the back of a car with him and 3 other males. It is here when I relax and enjoy the drive and nestle in his arms, not minding anymore if others would see it as a relationship.

#Hotel 1 (Daytime)
I vaguely remember the drive and the stranger people I’m with. We go to a hotel in the 3rd circle. He offers me to stay with him in the suit.
#Scene: I’m standing infront of the mirror, and my tooth falls out (lower front moler). I see that the other tooth on the right is showing a black synthetic base as well and I pull the tooth out. I smile and decide that I don’t care that now I’m missing two teeth. I leave my phone and wallet there, I never get a room key.
We are all meeting up later down at the bar to dance.
#Julie is in or is not in Thailand with Arifa.

#Skip to my lou (daytime)
I am carefree and happy. I don’t walk, I am skipping all the time. I say it out loud *Skip, skip , I am skipping”. I feel euphoric that I’m feeling so light and carefree. I skip with him too, holding hands.

#Ballet: (daytime)
Exploring the hotels outside grounds, a long stretch corridor leads to the pub. I run and take huge high leaps soaring and landing gracefully until I reach the end. I start dancing ballet like Wow. I enjoy every stretch and every move, with eyes closed and confidence on full power. More and more girls gather behind me and watch and are amazed. I was amazed at how happy I feel.

Back in the bar, back out of the bar and into the night street. Amman is lively.

#Adventure of finding the right hotel.
I walk around the streets, enjoying Amman thouroughl, then I head back to the bar.

#Hotel 2
I walk into the yard and see people gathered at the entrance. I tell the bouncer that I was already inside and came out, and that there are people inside waiting for me. But he won’t let me in, he asks me if I am a “B or..(?)”. Apparently I’m a bitch because I look Russian. This shocks me and I get angry and shout, demanding to see the manager. I walk around while I wait, a few strangers who also are not being let in are lounging around. I think about the offense as a man walks behind me and says something bad. I turn around and scare him with a fist move but never touch him. He is surprised and scared. He looks like I might have I misheard him, but I just keep walking. I get behind the bouncer and his ticket table, and I try to get inside when the door closes but my finger are jammed in, no pain. A busboy opens the door and I tell him I am looking for the manager. To the right inside the hotel is the restaurant and chaos. A spectacled Japanese man is lying facedown on the floor, and food is all over the place. He had choked but the waiter is yelling at him “You said you can eat the steak.”
I tell the busboy that the manager looks he’s going to be busy. and that I want to talk with someone else. Soon, I realize this is the wrong hotel and leave. I feel guilty that I said to the bouncer I’m expected inside and demand to complain to the manager.

#Wake up 1
I wake up. The night is very still, Julie is at a sleepover. It feels like the world is paused. I know that I will fall back asleep knowing I will get into the next scene, to find the right hotel.
I think there were 2-3 wrong hotels.

#Asians in the Playground

A park, with what i thought was korean tourists boys and girls in the playground doing something as a group. I stand overlooking the below park and i feel happy because i think that this is why all of this is happening. I am meant to come here and find someone. But the people turn up to be less asian and more african. A girl is standing to the right behind me and says something. But I leave.

#Hotel 3
Another hotel. I get in easy looking for the bar. No security outside but I realize this is not the place either. People in three rooms, a theater, a bar, .. and they are lounging like tired people everywhere and on floors. it is early morning but dark (like now 4 am).
I’m leaving but suddenly the security guys storm in with metal animal sticks grabbing people by their necks. I am shooed out with others.
At the door steps I again have a strong word with the security because they are treating people with disrespect. He says something like I am a bitch that’s why, and I turn around to hit him but he’s gone and someone else is there so I withdraw my punch.

A group of girls are also leaving and they walk with me for a moment. One asks me what happened. I make a joke and say he asked me if i was a “bitch or — 3adi”, and that i said to him 3adi with cheese please. We both laugh and I leave them on my way to yet another hotel.
I see a hotel (Radisson), a different block and almost certainly not my hotel.

#Wake up 2
I’ve tried enough. I don’t feel i need to go back to this dream.

Dream or a whole night alive in a parallel dimension.
Unlike dreams where things are vague and blurry and inconsistant, this was pretty normal as if it is a day in a life.