Purge Outdated Programs

Even still, I am as aggressive and defensive with mama. Thoughts would run in my mind like how primitive or instinctual this unevolving trait is. I am sitting there aware that I can’t control how I feel no matter how aware I am with understanding that this should not be happening. It is like outdated programs running everytime a script comes up, you know they are bad, useless, unnecessary cause you are quite ok with zenning out and not let anything bother. Or even a level more advanced and postevly filter everything with love for the information given, whatever it is. Without feeling I need to prove myself, just to listen and receive. So annoying.