unsent Letter to Sam

I wish you were him. That is honest enough. And I think if I was your age and younger I’d have fallen in love with you from the beginning.
But you are not what I need now. I want to be in your place, look up to someone. You’re still loosing you naivety while I am already losing my innocence.
My eye candy is Ulrich in his 40s.
Let me be honest, let me be on it. I feel I can with you.
It is so unfair to fall in love with someone who doesn’t want it from you.