#Dream: Another Blocked LD
I finally had awareness in my sleep tonight, although at the time I was sure that I wasn’t asleep.. But now I’m not so sure, maybe I was.
The title of today’s dream is ‘another failed attempt to lucid dream. I wonder wonder what’s wrong. But I’m so happy that I finally accomplished something and this is worth writing about.
I’m lying in bed and I thought I’m still awake because I could hear the YouTube video about Ufos.. and then I felt fear and almost felt/saw other beings 3-4 above me behind a desk or something. And I don’t know from where the strength and wisdom came but I was yelling to myself that fear is not real, and then when I felt a very pleasant sensation I also said that this is also not real. It passed and then I felt myself falling. Felt fear again and I stopped falling but I repeated that it’s all illusionary and said to myself that this is a chance to lucid dream, and then it worked and happened again. I fell again really hard really fast for a long time like down a tube. And then I either said I want to fly in space or I found myself there with weak stars and asked for more. The weak dispersed stars became brighter and denser and then hundreds of brightly colored galaxies appeared one after the other, it was brilliant but I noticed that it felt more like pictures shown in a row real fast. And I complained about it. I believe to them.
Later I’m dreaming that I am describing this to mama and grandma word for word slowly but never finished because I was interrupted by something.
Next I am outside, it’s nighttime, snowy and cold. When I find myself I’m still aware I immediately decide to lucid and as always- cause nothing comes to mind, I wanted the sun to appear. I ask for blue sky and beach and sea but it doesn’t happen. And I was surprised.
And it reminded me of the last time, months and months ago when I also attempted to lucid and raise the sun and it didnt work.
Now I don’t remember, but I did try it again in a different scene, and again i want the sun. And it doesn’t work.
It feels like something is broken. Why can’t I lucid dream I wonder.
