Are we on the same frequency

My desires, dreams and fantasies are not projecting on you. They are in check and have been.

It’s true that not having expectations is good for psychological survival. But you know what Karim, I want to risk and tempt fate and I want to not worry, but go with it, and flow with you to wherever we find ourselves.

I don’t know if, or why you don’t see it, but this fear of commitment (to the person you always longed to be with/for) is also what I’m going through. I feel the same way, I feel every cell in my being alerting me to stay in the middle and not be tempted to commit to the idea of you ending the loneliness, because of the impermanency of things. But isn’t it the only thing I ever wanted..

But isn’t it the only thing we ever wanted..

Although both of us know what we want, and what we want is the very same thing the other has, yet, both of us are worried and confused.

Just like my intentions failed last night and I went to bed early but alright, we are mature to survive the worst, if it dares come.

Stop looking elsewhere for solace because you are afraid to acknowledge what you want.
We have invested so much positive energy into previous relationships we knew were doomed from the start. How could we fill ours with this confusion and worry. How dare we.

Don’t think of it as a fucken relationship. It’s a life choice isn’t it. Your mistrust in committing to me is coming from the intimate histories you had with others, and from your soul’s primal core- fantasies that kept getting traumatised every time you opened up to a new relationship. Well you know I too refuse to compromise, and I won’t live with someone who makes me feel that I need something different.

I don’t think you’re afraid of me.
And What could happen if we allow ourselves to acknowledge what we represents to one another, I haven’t for my own reasons, but have you thought of all these precious things we have and are willing, and wanting to offer one another, even long to share together in unity between us and others in free love.

And although I’ve gone deeper in my darkness, as you say; I don’t fear committing to someone or a relationship. The repeating heartbreak drove resolve inside me that the person and the relationship I deserve is somewhere. When it’s meant to be.

You said you’re afraid of losing me. And you’re afraid of committing. This is what I am afraid of too. I don’t think our perspectives will serve us much. Talking about it to eachother works.

Maybe you don’t know how your detachment makes me feel.. Are you rejected me, trying to find fault or escape, easily dismissing me like that without remorse. It hurts because you know stuff with us is going to be awesomeness and beyond, and so much more because it’s common sense; hence,
an expectation,
from intuition,
Based on intention,
and not only projections from our subconscious mind.

Are we on the same frequency..