Cockatoo, LoaiDahleh

It was a new thing. Long. Very long. Very coherent. Very realistic. The only dream thing that happened was the elevator behaving like a shuttle.

Element: I had a pink cockatoo. I loved him.
It starts in Jido’s big living room.

And that is funny by it self, as I told myself when I am in jido’s living room (the tv room) I want to realise I am dreaming.
So instead, the setting shifts to the other living room.
I guess I have to lucid dream myself with anything to do with Jido.
Cuz he was another element. I saw him sitting on the roof, with a friend. And then through our kitchen window, with my family on a table by the window.
This I saw as the elevator went diagonally, with me, Loai and 3 other guys. And I was aware of seeing jido and that he was watching me.
I also checked if baba is seeing me go off with Loai and the guys in the crazy lift, but he was sitting on the far side in the kitchen with jido (yes) and did not notice me. And I said it is fine. Baba doesn’t know.
I am not so sure how the dream begins. But I will describe the cockatoo scene.
In the other living room. There is a cage. A very small one I notice later on when I say to probably Nadia that the bird needs a cage. A big one. Then I notice he has a cage, but it is tiny. And open. A round metal ring that he sits on.
I have a little remote control. And I am demonstrating to her probably, and to myself, that I cannot take care of my bird. Look what I do, unintentionally. And I press a button, and I don’t know, the bird is sitting on a fish bowl and the button makes the solid invisible surface rotate, so the bird goes under water for a moment. Gets wet, and I worry that he will drown. I see it happening twice. And after that I think I say that he needs a proper big cage.
The bird is pink or light red. Probably from the game I have been playing Happy Street. You pluck a red feather every time the bird flies by in the forest.
And the word feather or feathery is uttered in the dream.
I realise the bird is a cockatoo and he speaks just like one does. I feel connected to it and love it.
Later on, I put on a black leather long glove on my right hand for some other purpose, when the bird flies to my shoulder and then perches on the glove happily as if belonging. So whatever the reason of the glove was I forget and the glove is the bird’s new home. We talk. And he is voicing the words clearly. I don’t remember what he says, or even if he is just repeating what I say. But in the dream, I guess I had some level of awareness that it is a dream, and I think to myself, wow how coherent this bird is. I cannot forget his words. But I did.

Loai

I am walking somewhere between the 3rd and 4th circle. On the Khalidi side but close to the 4thc road. I walk there sometimes in dreams. It is evening but very light. Quiet. Not a lot of houses, the lands are open and I feel nice.
When a car pulls over, and I see that it is Loai. He looks really good. And whenever I am around him I know that I am cool, as in very confident, and very successful in personality.
Next I guess we are in my house, and we are going inside the lift. 3 other guys.his friends. I don’t know what he does, but I say to him don’t do that, otherwise the lift will shake and act crazy. When it happens, the lift growls and shakes and I worry that it will tumble down, but instead it zooms “diagonally” and flies through the empty land behind the house. This is when I see Jido on the roof. He’s very happy. Entertaining a friend. He sees me. Smiling. Sitting on a white pool chair. It is very light, but is evening. No sun.
The lift hasn’t acted in this (usual) way in many years. So that’s different.
The lift lands gently on the road behind the house and we get off and walk to the end of the street to the left. We enter the house. I think its L’s house.
Inside is lovely, loads of people. Mostly family members like Amo Ghaith Najjar, Taghreed (whom I saw yesterday at Zara Kids Expo) and Rima Najjar. The Najjar kids were there too.
Eveyone is happy that I finally made it there. They want me to stay and be with Loai Dahleh. And all of his friends so too.
I say to Taghreed/Rima if you want me to stay and I want to, you must call baba and tell him that I am with you now. That is the only way.
She says yes. And I feel so happy and thankful and thank her and hug her.
I move on outside. I see Loai. I feel very drawn to him. It feels very right. But it is very strange too,
I think he is there all the time. I don’t remember most of it now.
Scene
Lots of friends. I hear a familiar voice, and I look and see Ali Awedah talking to 2 girls on my right.
Either I say it out loud, or telepathically, but Ali looks at me the second I realise I know the voice, and his eyes are appreciating
I feel happy to see him. I shake hands with him or something smilar.
But this triggers the (friends) to tell Loai that I am cheating on him. It made more sense in the dream.
I go after L outside and I am overly confident and awesome.
He says that theres nothing I can do or say, and I wasn’t intending to
I tell him just come here
We lay our backs on a wall or something, or maybe a car seat, and we gaze at each other and I win him over.
I think it was telepathic. He understood that I am the one, and Ali is not the one.
But this happened in the end. The gaze was interrupted by me waking up.
Also, I did wake up somewhere in the middle, and chanted Loai Dahleh over and over to get back to the dream, and I did.
But I have lost all the other encounters with him. Which were many. And beautiful.

The bird follows me perching on my black gloved arm as I go in and out of a car.

It is strange that I dream of L in his present image. Strange I didn’t dream of him with his glasses on, tall skinny nerd from school. How did his present look get imprinted in my mind so hard that I saw him exactly as above in the photo. When I look at him I feel love and trust.

I woke up and I am feeling different. Serious. Strong. Big.
Mama said don’t you dare go into my room to smoke. It is not fair. (Babushka and no smoking zone)
I looked at her and said I am not playing the game. 7ili 3anni. Im sitting here and smoking.