#Total Recall

  • #Dream: Spontaneous Vivaldian Violin

    Recalled on 22/9/16
    I was standing in the corridor, the light was dim. Somebody was standing behind me. My arm spontaneously moved, the bow authoritatively struck the strings of the violin, once and again and again. The energy instantaneously manifested into sublime, sublime music.

    The sound was truly alive, crystal clear. My body felt the reverbing ripples reach the expanses of the cosmos. The music was everywhere. The music was everything. I heard it inside my mind. Nothing is alive but the sound of the music. I felt free, whole, and I felt content. I was drinking the passion of my curiosity. I felt my musical creation and a connection to a source of omniscient wisdom, experience and knowledge.
    I was the music. Vivaldi, 315 Presto and 297 Allegro non-Molto and something new to me. The whole was a powerfully perfect mixture; a matrix of the known and the unknown.

    But my mind suddenly woke up and started making sense of the different layers of music it was processing. It realised that it can’t sort out the unfamiliar parts of the song, and then it realised that I don’t even play the violin.
    The damned moment it stated to me that it can’t guess what part of the music comes next, my wrist anxiously played the wrong note. Now my mind was trying hard to ‘save me’ and guess what notes I should play next. As a result, I completely lost the ability to make the strings make any music. I tried hard but I only made a disturbing clash of notes. I lowered the instrument down and hung my head in shame, of myself.
    My consciousness let me down.

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  • #Dreams: Dinosaurs (old): Curiosity & Fear

    I have had a strong connection to dinosaurs and space every since i was little. And when I was 12, my dad took me to see my first movie in the cinema: Jurassic Park. When we went back home, I was living a trip in the kitchen, terrified that there are dinosaurs outside in the night and telling my parents about it.   For a few years since then, I have had impressibly vivid dreams about these creatures. I remember that I was always lucid, always in these particular dreams. I could simply remember that it is a dream. Moreover, I could metaphorically switch a button  and wakeup as soon as the terror trumped the fascination.   I was also very conscious of the fact that they will never hurt me, that the only problem in the matter is me fearing them.   Now, I am very conscious of my dreams, as I use the vividest ones to understand what it is that I am. So it was a strange moment, when a few days ago I remembered that I used to have intuitive capabilities in my old dinosaur dreams.   December 14, 2015

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