…“When I look to the east I think of you
softly waiting for the vines to abdicate
their portion of your heart.
So you can be chiseled out of the matrix
with smooth hammer strokes
from my hands.
Freed of the coal, the black rot
of untouched shoulders,
you can open your eyes again
flashing the iridescent animals,
valiant vibrations of your rich spirit.” — TDK, Dec 2018
Last night I was making wrong connections. The truth is i do not look ugly or unkept even with mascara tear or two or sex.
Why does it feel like a deer caught in the headlights.
I wrongly wondered, why does he say this in these particular moments?
In that moment it was after it was over. He stood up and came around and sat near my relaxed body. He gazed, i had zero attachment to myself. I truly looked back,
And he smiled his eyes wide with recognition.
And I wondered, why now? I look ugly.
Oh woe you!
He’s good for me.
Your eyes are so full of all I’ve ever known that it’s shown to me as an entire existence at a glance, dancing around as they look back…
…and that is truly that – TDK 17.4.2014
…
And I
I am the most divine
The most beautiful
The most gorgeous
Sexappeal shines through me
Blinding all those who see
Boys and girls alike
I am true Aphrodite
My life is full
I am living the last moment of hell
Though I have adapted myself sweetly
Everything is under control
A breezy graduation semester
All courses are A’s so far
And then I graduate and off to Beirut
The land of merry-go-rounds to celebrate
Where I am the mysterious gorgeous foreigner
I will waltz in
The maiden in black
And put a spell on every girl and man
I will go clubbing
Dance and dance till dawn
High high high
The sweet relief of marijuana
Drunk
Sleep on the white sand beach
And then
And then I am back in my room
Packing and saying goodbye
Leaving for a brand new life
A new start
So chin up
Up high my lady
You are the one
You are almost there
Let butterflies fly you to the beginning of the way…
