Shadowork: Ugly

Last night I was making wrong connections. The truth is i do not look ugly or unkept even with mascara tear or two or sex.

Why does it feel like a deer caught in the headlights.

I wrongly wondered, why does he say this in these particular moments?

In that moment it was after it was over. He stood up and came around and sat near my relaxed body. He gazed, i had zero attachment to myself. I truly looked back,

And he smiled his eyes wide with recognition.

And I wondered, why now? I look ugly.

Oh woe you!

He’s good for me.

Your eyes are so full of all I’ve ever known that it’s shown to me as an entire existence at a glance, dancing around as they look back…
…and that is truly that – TDK 17.4.2014